I am So, So Sorry!
The other day, I went through all the old files on my computer and through all the old messages on various forums that I am apart of (I lie, I only belong to one religiously - Snark). And what can I say? Jesus, I was an annoying, uneducated, IMMATURE little twat! From the way I spoke, to the things I said and spoke about…I am so disgusted in myself and cannot believe I put so many of you through that part of my growing up. I had liked to believe that I was always a proper, intelligent young girl while I was growing up but with the evidence right under my nose, I was just the absolute complete opposite. Reading through 14 year old April’s writings and opinions and general banter just makes me feel like shooting myself in the face. My question to you all is: How the fuck did you put up with me? Seriously!.
I am so ashamed and embarrassed at who I used to be that I almost want to just disappear under my bed and never emerge. I now understand the true meaning of the word “teenybopper”. That is exactly what I was. I thought I was some hotted up young piece of ass that could go around talking like she knew everything and that everyone loved her. Oh god, this was not the case. Don’t get me wrong - I never lied with anything about myself, but my opinions and the way I spoke was just down right disgusting.
Part of me fears that maybe I still am as annoying, uneducated and immature as I was back then but I do like to think that I have definitely evolved into a somewhat-intelligent, well-rounded young female that doesn’t sound like a twat when she attempts to voice her opinion or just join in on a conversation.
This is, an official apology to all those who have known me from that ripe old foul age of 14: I am so, so sorry. Feel free to bash me around the head with a brick, or squirt mandarin juice in my eye because that really stings.
Lol, I know exactly what you’re talking about—I think the exact same things about myself when I look back at the way I was.
Even on like, Facebook, when I look at old comments I made on past pictures, it’s just like “Really? I was THAT annoying back then..?”But we grow up eventually, so we think… Lol.
I feel totally the same.. I thank Snark for helping me become a better person.. Although I’m still annoying. :L it’s totally cringe worthy looking back. Heck, I cringe at things I did IN real life let alone online..
I believe most of us feel that way when we read things we wrote when we were younger, it’s really embarrassing. However, it makes you appreciate how much you’ve matured.
Honestly, your always going to look back and be surprised at who you were years before, no matter how old you get. It’s okay. People grow. I think part of growing up is accepting who you used to be, and that even now, you’re not perfect
I think everyone goes through that phase. 14 seems to be a particularly embarrassing year for most people, haha. That was like the pinnacle of my awkwardness. Even though my life has turned out pretty well it’s still painful for me to think of myself then.
Don’t worry, it happened to everyone.
And it might happen again another 10 years down the road. I’m 28, and horrified at my online behavior 10 years back. I’ve repressed anything further back than that.
Btw, captcha? Size62. :( Uncool, captcha. Uncool.
